I Don't Even Know if You Show

Oh Dear Lord. Listening to songs about you makes me thirst as if I were in a dry and weary land. Everything inside of me craves...for you and for your kingdom. God, I don't even know if I'm doing what you want me to do. At times like this, I just want to sit by your side and sing. Just sing for your glory, just worship you. I adore you. God, you are the strength of my life. But I don't even know if you show. God I want you to show in my life. I don't want to get caught up in living, in going. I want to know you and the glory of your salvation.I want to live and breathe you and I want to reflect you. More than ever, God. If I truly believe this whole salavation story; if i believe the whole message in your word is really true, why doesn't my life reflect it more. God, who have I touched? I don't know I can't think of anyone. God, you know my heart, why do I feel like this? Daddy I need you to speak to me. I need you to give my life true direction, not this aimless wandering, this half-hearted guessing. God, I want to speak your word. I want to touch lives with the power of your name. I want to see miracles, hearts turn to you, healing, miracles. I want to know what it means to walk with you, to find my life in you. God, I need to find my life in you. Please help me, please do it.