The Baby Inside My Belly!!!!!

I found out on August 11 that I am pregnant. Or at least that's what both of my $1 pregnancy tests from Dollar Tree said. I didn't believe it. I felt like I couldn't believe it, just too surreal. Me...pregnant?!! It was a Saturday, so I had no choice but to wait until Monday to call the Doctor. And then when I did, he would not see me. Something about my having to be at least eight weeks along before I could come in. I was infuriated, and I made sure to tell the lady who answered the phone. It didn't matter. They still wouldn't see me.  I even decided to go to one of those low-income clinics for another urine test (the blood test took too long) just in case I'd messed up the home one. Pregnant. But oh, unbelieving Thomas that I am, I still didn't really know. Nonetheless, Christian (formerly known as David), ever-rational brain that he is, decided we should tell family (By this time time I'd taken about three at-home tests, my period had failed to make an apperance for six weeks or so, and my boobs were huge and painful.)  I went along and did so gladly because even though I didn't really know, know, the thought of it being true was just too exciting. And so we told his family, my family, best friends, on an on. A few days later, I was still thinking "Oh my God, we're telling all these people I'm pregnant...now they all expect a baby. What if I'm just sick."

Until September 13. Like Thomas, I believed when I saw. The little seed was in my belly, fully formed, dancing and moving its arms and legs, prancing for mommy and daddy to see. I heard its heart beat too "thump-thump, thump-thump, thump-thump." The sound was so strong and so unexpected coming from my belly! " I'm here! I'm here! Wonder in amazement at the beauty of my little arms, legs and beating heart!" I'd never felt such awe and bewilderment in my life. My eyes were transfixed to the little figure on the screen with its fully formed body, tiny arms, tiny legs, big head and little tummy. All Christian could do was smile and laugh and point to the little hands that moved as if greeting its mommy an daddy for the firs time.  "That right there is my baby!" I thought. "I'm going to be a mom. Christian is gong to be a daddy. We really did it. God is forming our little boy or little girl inside of me right now." It's like a dream.