Not sure I know what to get from my reading today. In Mattew 1, I read about how Mary became pregnant while engaged to Joseph and of how the Holy Spirit told Joseph not to leave her because the baby in her womb had been conceived by the Holy Spirit. Later on, in Acts Ch. 1, I read about how the disciples decided who would be Judas' successor by drawing straws.
In reading Matthew, I know i'm missing a lot. A lot of the shock and emotion that Mary and Joseph must have both felt. The story reads a lot more plainly than it could have happened and I have trouble grasping the significance of it.
In reading Acts, I started to think about the whole practice of casting lots. It would be a lot easier if I could just cast lots for major decisions in my life like the apostles did; I almost decided to start doing this as practice. Then I researched the topi a bit and found some debate on whether this was good practice today or not; the gist of the argument against it was that we have the Holy Spirit and the word of God which abides in us so we no longer need to cast lots. Sounded like a valid point, but I'm still not sure it completely does away with the possibility that casting lots is a good idea. I think I'll just wait till I read more in Acts to see how the apostles made their decision after the day of pentecost.
So...that's that. I'm a little restless and frustrated because I feel like I'm not getting enough out of the scriptures. I keep thinking there's more, some hidden treasure in what I'm reading, but so far I haven't had any major eureka. So, God, what do you want me to do with this quiet time today? Should I keep reading, keep researching, should I worship, should I just stay quiet, is there something you wnat to tell me? I don't know. I'm not sure. But I don't want to come out the same as I came in. Can you fill me please? Revive your Holy Spirit within me today?
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