Prayer and Supplication...

So, I've arrived at the conclusion that life just gets more complicated the older you get.  Dear Lord, I've got such a headache. So many worries, so many things going all at once. Work, Fabian's situation, my brother, the list goes on and on. Oh dear Lord, all it does is show me how much I need you everyday. You are the reason I can get thru it all. You fill my life. And I know that your word prevails.

"Be anxious for nothing, but by prayer and supplication make your requests known to God." That's what I'm doing today, Lord. I know I can only find myself in you. I know my life is hidden in you. This world will pass, these troubles of today will pass, but you remain as the steadfast rock in my life. My God, in whom, I lean on, rely and confidently trust. I want community with you, God. Give me dove's eyes, to only see you. Fill my life with you, make me that woman of faith, that woman who lives out of every word that proceeds from your mouth.

Father, I lift up Fabian to you. Dear God, you know how troubled my heart is. I don't know what to do but pray. And so I am praying. Dear Lord have mercy upon him, send your angels to guard him and keep him. Reveal yourself to him. Jesus, save him! Lift him out of the miry clay and show him your goodness, your everlasting life. Please, Dear Lord, bring the things that are hidden into the light. Give David wisdom and discernment to speak to him. Give A visions and dreams, reveal to her the things he is hiding. Father be his potter. That you would mold and rebuild him. Have mercy on him, Father.

Lord I lift up EF to you. My God, how I love him. How my heart hurts for him. I don't know how much suffering he is feeling right now, but I can only imagine. Father, please set him free from bitterness and unforgiveness. Erase the visions that torment him. God fill him with your love, your strength. Raise him up as a strong man of unwielding faith in his Lord. Change her as well God. Please work in her. Bring her to true repentance and fill her with your spirit, with your meekness. Give her wisom, give her the mind of Christ. And please protect the little one. Oh, God, send your angels to surround that little one right now. God, that nothing would impede his or her entrance into this world. Please make it so that little baby comes into a loving family, a family that is directed by you, that is filled with your spirit and your love. Dear Father, saturate that home with your spirit. Please send your angels to protect her and her womb, please God. Work a miracle, God. Please give them your joy. Set him free from debt, from financial bondage. Lord, be his provider, be his direction. Give me wisdom to speak to him, please give me your words and multiply our seed into him.

Dear God, help me at work. Sometimes I feel so discouraged, so overwhelmed, so un-animated. But Father, that is where you have put me, and so I am asking you to be my joy and my strength. Give me favor Father, but please keep me from idolatry or from desiring man's praise. God, show me what it is to live and work for you. To look to you for everything, for approval, for favor, for satisfaction. Help me, God. Help me to do well, to lift your name on high everywhere I go. Give me your eyes, your hands, your feet. God let my career be a living worship and sacrifice to you. Take away my fear, my insecurities. Help my unbelief. God, I surrender anew to you. I adore you my Father. You are the strength of my life.

Please help my friend. God, awaken her heart to you. Fill her with your spirit, with your joy. God ease her frustrations, and her fears. God, be her all. Surround her with your love, fille her with you. God that you would be more than enough for her. Father, bring her back to her first love, to that momen of utter and complete abandon in you. Grant her desires Father, but help her find all that she needs in you. Take away her anger. God bless her marriage. Give him wisdom, show him how to love and encourage her. God bless her womb. Make it fertile, and in your time Lord, bless her God. Oh Lord, how my heart desires to see my friend standing tall and strong, and unafraid of whatever this world throws her way right now. God, that she would be complete in you. Set her soul afire for you once again. God, touch her. Touch her heart, show her how to love you more and more everyday. Awaken her hunger and thirst for you. Show her how to live in you and walk with you everyday. Father, do an amazing work in her. Do a new work in her. Speak to her Father. Tune her ears to you. Take away her rebellion, her stubborness, her idols, her disillusionment. Dear Lord, that she would arise. Bless them financially, bless his studies. God make him a man who depends on you for every step. God give him more of you everyday. Save his family, his sister, have mercy on her. Dear Lord, cover my friend. Dear Lord, sanctify them for your good works. God, envelope them in your loving embrace. Make their home, a home where love and peace and joy would abide. Just take them all into you Lord.

And my parents. Lord where to start. I am tired, weary, almost losing faith. God, please, make me understand. Give me your eyes, give me your spirit. Father, please work in them. Work in that church. Take away my father's stubbornness. Give mami wisdom, give her patience and love. God  please humble him. God help him to stand before you naked and show him your way. Show him how to do it your way. Dear God, they work so hard. They have devoted so much of their time and life to this ministry. Dear Lord, please, please, please. That they would see your goodness in this life, that they would see the fruits of their labor bloom. God take down all the idols that they may have, give them wisom, make things simple. Help me believe, I almost can't believe any more. Father have mercy on them, show them the error of their ways and bless their labor, God. Please, Dear Lord, they need your help, your guidance. They need you.

New Blog Theme--Whatever You Do...

I've decided today to permanently or temporarily focus the theme of this blog on one thing: my experiences and daily successes or failures at living out Colossians 3:23

"Whatever may be your task, work at it heartily (from the soul), as something done for the Lord and not for men. Knowing with all certainty that it is from the Lord and not from man that you will receive the inheritance which is your real reward. The one whom you are actually serving is the Lord Christ." Colossians 3:23-24.

This verse has become my hearts desire now so much more than ever that I have started this new job. Thank you God for my job-I've been gone for so long and haven't had much of a chance to write about it here, but my heart is so thankful.

So very thankful and amazed at the way you worked it all out (my anxiety over the interview in Fort Pierce and the fact that the interview in Orlando-my first choice-was not set for several weeks later, Fort Pierce's notification that I didn't get the job right after Orlando sent me the letter, Mr. V's email and on and on...)

I don't have much time to write now, but I will soon. Despite my initial excitement with my new job and my eagerness to learn and do good, I've been bombarded with questions, doubts, peer pressure, insecurities...and on and on it goes. Worst of alll, I've developed this intense desire to climb the ladder of legal opportunity and prestige and please my superiors. I know it's all wrong, and I realize my perspective has seriously been hampered. That's why I'm writing about Colossians 3. This is my prayer today Lord, and I will focus and direct my energies to making it true in my life.

The Bar

Oh Dear Lord. Where to begin. I don't know. I have this huge mountain in front of me, and it looms so big. Please put David's words deep in my heart, "With your help I can advance against a troop, with my God I can scale a wall.", I don't know how I can do it, don't know how other people do it. I can only trust that you, my God, my hope of Glory will do. That you will do as you've done these past three years, you've amazed me in so many ways.  God and you've been good, remind me. Remind me of all the funny little stories of how you provided and came through. Like that semester when I was getting married right after finals, or the time I freaked out about applying to Fort Pierce and Orlando and being so scared that the timing would be off and I wouldn't get that job in Orlando. And what did you do? You showed me. I wonder what you were thinking that day I was freaking out and scared, you probably remembered that I was made of dust and had compassion on me even in my obtuseness. Thank you Lord. And you will come through again, your hand is not shortened. Thank you for your word God, and thank you for Vanessa and this scripture.

¹ May the LORD answer you when you are in distress;
may the name of the God of Jacob protect you.
² May he send you help from the sanctuary
and grant you support from Zion.
³ May he remember all your sacrifices
and accept your burnt offerings.^[b]
4 May he give you the desire of your heart
and make all your plans succeed.
⁵ May we shout for joy over your victory
and lift up our banners in the name of our God.
May the LORD grant all your requests.
⁶ Now this I know:
The LORD gives victory to his anointed.
He answers him from his heavenly sanctuary
with the victorious power of his right hand.
⁷ Some trust in chariots and some in horses,
but we trust in the name of the LORD our God.
⁸ They are brought to their knees and fall,
but we rise up and stand firm.
⁹ LORD, give victory to the king!
Answer us when we call!

Dear God, do this for David. Give him this communion, this assurance that you give me. It's only with you that I can stand, that I can face this great unknown and have peace. I want him to experience that. Bring him to your chambers, God.

Bride of Christ

I am the bride of Christ. You love me and have asked me to be yours. You love me as a husband loves his bride. God, I didn't know what that meant, but now that I'm married to David it astounds me. He is such a beautiful reflection of what it means to be a bride.  His love for me is a holy reflection of your love, and your acceptance and the holy intimacy that exists between you and me. Thank you God, because as much as he loves me, with all my imperfections, and how embracing he is of me and my quirks even with my faults, you love me so much more. It's hard to comprehend. God, the openness and trust that I feel towards him, to know that the King of the universe feels for me the way he feels for me and more, is overwhelmeming. I love you God. I am so thankful that you have made me your bride, that I am a part of you. God, I thank you for your everlasting love, for your sacrifice for me, for laying down your life for me. For ransoming me. You bought me like Hosea bought Gomer and you came after me and you continue to come after me everyday of my life. Thank you for covering my nakedness, for cleansing my dirt and sin. I love you God. I love you. Open my eyes. God, open my eyes to see you. Allure me to you, woe me to you. Sanctify me. Teach me to love you good. To love you with all my heart, mind and spirit.

So Much Right Now...

Oh Father. What do I say right now? I'm tired, so tired. And I'm thankful. The other day, I pretty much broke down because I was so overwhelmed by your goodness. I have a job. You provided, as you promised. And I'm so excited God. I look forward to it with so much expectation and wonder. But right now I have this huge mountain to climb and I'm becoming exhausted. Weary, just weary. I probably haven't done this the right way either though. I could probably be praying a lot more, taking more time to slow down and rest. Just rest in you. You are my rest. God help me please. This exam seems impossible, my brain doesn't seem to quite retain all of this information and time slips thru my hands everyday.

And then, then there's my baby. He's going thru the same right now God. Working so hard, hoping for so much, but neither of us really know what can happen.  God that's how it feels at times. And then I have to remember that your goodness and your heart is for us. That you desire his happiness and his good. Please hide us in your shelter, cover us with your mighty hand. I love you Daddy. We trust you, lead us...there's so much that's unknown right now. But you are a lamp unto our feet and a light unto our path.

Graduation:"I will instruct you and teach you the way you should go, I will counsel you and watch over you." -God

I can't sleep. Dear God I can't sleep. It's so annoying, so frustrating, but I have so much running thru my mind. I didn't even take a minute out this week to thank you, for graduating nine days ago. I mean, actually thank you-not just in passing, not just in word. After it was all said and done, you helped me get to the top of the tallest mountain of my past three years and I didn't even honor you. It makes me so ashamed.

 I'm sorry God. I'm sorry, it seems like its the theme of my life. It's so discouraging sometimes. But I am thankful God. I am thankful and I realize that it was you. That it was all you and I could not have done it without you. You were so faithful. I remember daydreaming about it for so long And you made my dream come true. Like you have done in so many other areas of my life. Thank you. I wasn't the most likely candidate; I had little going for me, but you made it possible. My God is strong, his power knows no bounds. Dear Lord, help me remember that. Help me remember this great accomplishment and the strength of your right hand from this point on also. Please direct me, thank you for how you've spoken today:

 "I will instruct you and teach you the way you should go. I will counsel you and watch over you." Psalm 32:8

I think I forgot that earlier today and yesterday, with this mess of job-searching and stuff. But thank you for reminding me. You will instruct me and teach me where to go. Thank you God. Thank you for watching over me. I love you my dearest Lord.

Your Little Sheep

Hi Jesus! Long time no blog...thank God this time it hasn't meant long time no talk. I have been busy though. So busy. I'm starting to wonder if the rest of my life is going to be like this. Calendars and schedules and plans on and on and on. I'm tired, almost bone tired and I haven't even started the hard part.

There's so much going on right now Lord, exams, job search, bar prep, trials, etc. I'm glad because I'm not feeling overwhelmed or completely done in. I know it has to be your sustaining grace, but I am gettting tired. Funny, writing this now makes me remember that time a few semesters back when I told you the same thing. It was in my living room and I was trying to pray, but somehow I ended up crying about how exhausted I was. But you talked to me.  "Come to me all ye who are weary and heavy laden....I will give you rest. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light" LRV. Talk about the word of God being sustaining. I experienced that wholeheartedly that night. Thank you God, thank you for that because you got me through.

Help me remember that tonight again, as I go and try to read your word and meditate on it...remind me of how good you are, of how wonderfully amazing and kind you are. Remind me that you do not give me more than I can bear and that you are my strength, that I can do all things in you; that you are greater than this world and the worries and tasks of this world.

Lord, but before I go. I want to lift my job before you. My job search. It's been hard to do with so much, and even though I'm trusting you, I'm afraid of worry creeping in. I'm afraid that I don't know my own weakeness and that at some point I'll start to freak out like everyone else who is graduating seems to do when it comes to looking for a job. But you are right, You ARE in me, the hope of glory. Amen. Yes, that's true. You are my hope of glory, the hope of glory in this career that you have given me for your name sake. And your perfect love casts out all my fears. I believe that, help me remember thatn and receive your perfect, complete, wholesome love so that I would not fear. So that I would stand steadfast and look to the mountains even in my valley and see your help. My help comes from you Lord, the maker of heaven and earth. The maker of the laws of this world. The most righteouts Judge, you God, and the most holy perfect advocate, Jesus.

I don't know what I want, what is best, what I should look for, where to apply. I really don't know much. There are so many voices, so many things out there. I feel a little lost sometimes. But right now as I write, I make the decision to trust you. To remember that you set a path before me, that you are lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path. That you will direct me in the way I should go, that you will close doors and open doors that no man can shut. That you will crown me with glory. Amen. My heart trusts in you and I am helped. I love you Jesus. Please flood me with your peace, and lead me Lord. Lead me for I am the flock of your pasture. I am sheep, but I am your little sheep.

Doing the Work

A wise youth harvests in the summer, but one who sleeps during harvest is a disgrace. Proverbs 10:5

• All the work of the field should be done in the season suitable to it. If summer and harvest be neglected, in vain does a man expect the fruits of autumn. -Clarke's Commentary.

Good morning Lord. Praised be your name forever and ever, you are such a wonderful and glorious God. Father, thank you for your words, because they are a lamp unto my feet, they guide me and cleanse me and fill my life. Please help me on this morning to harvest in this season of my life. While I am yet in my last semester of law school. Give me wisdom to see the importance of harvesting even on this last stretch. I'm tired, and weary of this work God, but I don't want to sleep and I don't want to be a disgrace to all that you've done thus far. I want to finish this race strong.

Help me today, in a very practical way. I need your help today, to finish this paper, to do what needs to be done. Please fill me with your spirit, with your strength and energy.

Your word and spirit re-energizes me because I know that with you, with My God, I can scale a mountain! I put my trust in you, that you are doing a good work in me and that you really do equip me for every good work.

I love you Lord. You are the light of my life, the salvation of my dreadful heart. I can do nothing without you; I am nothing without you. But with you, with you, I'm unstoppable. Amen! I praise you Jesus. You are the Lord of my life. I adore you and I submit this day to you.

Psalm 119 for David

I am remembering your promises..Your Word does not come back void....Faith comes through hearing your word.. I proclaim each and everyone of those over David.  And Psalm 119...Oh God, that 119 would become his lifesong:

"Blessed are they who keep his statutes and seek him with all his heart..." This is David. In Jesus name, this will be David.

"Oh that my ways were steadfast in obeying your decrees! Then I would not be put to shame when I consider all your commands..." David will learn steadfastness in you, Jesus. You will finish your mighty work in him, and he will not be put to shame: he will see the salvation of the Lord.

"I run in the path of your commands for you have set my heart free." God set him free to run after you, to run and glide on your promises to run after you. Set him free from fear of man, from fear of failure from fear of the future, all fears!

"Give me understanding and I will keep you law and obey it with all my heart." God turn his heart to you, open his spiritual eyes, his understanding to your word. Fill him with understanding.

And finally, one of my strongest, most resonating prayers for him....

"Turn my eyes away from worthless things, preserve my life according to our word." In the name of Jesus, I proclaim that every, every idol will be torn down, everything that takes from his time with you, from his attention to you WILL NO LONGER BE. I proclaim that he will, turn his eyes from every worthless things and to you.

Promises for David

"Mas alabase en esto el que se hubiere de alabar: en entenderme y conocerme, que yo soy Jehova, que hago misericordia, juicio y justicia en la tierra; porque estas cosas quiero." Jeremiah 9:24

"Porque yo se los pensamientos que tengo acerca de vosotros, dice Jehova, pensaminetos de paz, y no de mal, para daros el fin que esperais." Jeremiah 29:11

" God, the one and only--I'll wait as long as he says. Everything I need comes from him, so why not? He's solid rock under my feet. Breathing room for my soul. An impregnable castle: I'm set for life...My help and glory are in God. Granite-srength and safe-harbor God. So trust in him absolutely people. Lay your lives on the line for him. God is a safe place to be...God said this once and for all; how many times have I heard it repeated? 'Strength comes straight from God.'" Psalm 62:5-8, 11-12

"'Test me in this,'" says the LORD Almighty, 'and see if I will not throw open the floodgates of heaven and pour out so much blessing that you will not have room enough for it.'" Malachi 3:10

Dear God these are my prayers today and for always for David. Lord would you please reveal yourself to him? Can you please put a passion in his heart to seek you, to know you. Burn him up with passion for you. Fill his heart with longing, fill his mind with thoughts of you. God find him in dreams, in visions, in words, at work, through friends, through me. Surround him and open his heart to you. Open his eyes to you dear God. God make this true in his life; that if he were to boast in anything it be the fact that he knows you and walks with you in communion as a friend. Daddy, teach him how to be your close friend everyday. To speak to you as a friend. To communicate with you daily.

Reveal to him that you are good, that you are faithful and grant the desires of his heart. Teach him to wait on you, God. I ask that he would he learn to wait on you with full assurance of your goodness and provision. Father give him paitence as he waits. Increase his faith in you. Give him peace and security in you and who you are Father. Cover him, fill him.

Thank you for the promise that you revealed to me today. I know your word is for him; you have good plans, good thoughts towards him, but most amazing of all, you have plans to give him the end that he expects. The end that he has waited on for so long.  I believe in my heart that it will not be for naught. I believe that you will pour out blessings in overabundance.

I receive your word for my husband and also for me and our children. For my entire household God. We will live lives that test you, lives of faithfullness in tithing, in finances, in devotion and dedication to you. And we will see you pour out blessings in overabundance. So much blessing that we will NOT have room to contain them and will share and spread them to those around us. I receive you word God. And I say yes, I say amen. I do believe.