The Bar

Oh Dear Lord. Where to begin. I don't know. I have this huge mountain in front of me, and it looms so big. Please put David's words deep in my heart, "With your help I can advance against a troop, with my God I can scale a wall.", I don't know how I can do it, don't know how other people do it. I can only trust that you, my God, my hope of Glory will do. That you will do as you've done these past three years, you've amazed me in so many ways.  God and you've been good, remind me. Remind me of all the funny little stories of how you provided and came through. Like that semester when I was getting married right after finals, or the time I freaked out about applying to Fort Pierce and Orlando and being so scared that the timing would be off and I wouldn't get that job in Orlando. And what did you do? You showed me. I wonder what you were thinking that day I was freaking out and scared, you probably remembered that I was made of dust and had compassion on me even in my obtuseness. Thank you Lord. And you will come through again, your hand is not shortened. Thank you for your word God, and thank you for Vanessa and this scripture.

¹ May the LORD answer you when you are in distress;
may the name of the God of Jacob protect you.
² May he send you help from the sanctuary
and grant you support from Zion.
³ May he remember all your sacrifices
and accept your burnt offerings.^[b]
4 May he give you the desire of your heart
and make all your plans succeed.
⁵ May we shout for joy over your victory
and lift up our banners in the name of our God.
May the LORD grant all your requests.
⁶ Now this I know:
The LORD gives victory to his anointed.
He answers him from his heavenly sanctuary
with the victorious power of his right hand.
⁷ Some trust in chariots and some in horses,
but we trust in the name of the LORD our God.
⁸ They are brought to their knees and fall,
but we rise up and stand firm.
⁹ LORD, give victory to the king!
Answer us when we call!

Dear God, do this for David. Give him this communion, this assurance that you give me. It's only with you that I can stand, that I can face this great unknown and have peace. I want him to experience that. Bring him to your chambers, God.