Your Little Sheep

Hi Jesus! Long time no blog...thank God this time it hasn't meant long time no talk. I have been busy though. So busy. I'm starting to wonder if the rest of my life is going to be like this. Calendars and schedules and plans on and on and on. I'm tired, almost bone tired and I haven't even started the hard part.

There's so much going on right now Lord, exams, job search, bar prep, trials, etc. I'm glad because I'm not feeling overwhelmed or completely done in. I know it has to be your sustaining grace, but I am gettting tired. Funny, writing this now makes me remember that time a few semesters back when I told you the same thing. It was in my living room and I was trying to pray, but somehow I ended up crying about how exhausted I was. But you talked to me.  "Come to me all ye who are weary and heavy laden....I will give you rest. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light" LRV. Talk about the word of God being sustaining. I experienced that wholeheartedly that night. Thank you God, thank you for that because you got me through.

Help me remember that tonight again, as I go and try to read your word and meditate on it...remind me of how good you are, of how wonderfully amazing and kind you are. Remind me that you do not give me more than I can bear and that you are my strength, that I can do all things in you; that you are greater than this world and the worries and tasks of this world.

Lord, but before I go. I want to lift my job before you. My job search. It's been hard to do with so much, and even though I'm trusting you, I'm afraid of worry creeping in. I'm afraid that I don't know my own weakeness and that at some point I'll start to freak out like everyone else who is graduating seems to do when it comes to looking for a job. But you are right, You ARE in me, the hope of glory. Amen. Yes, that's true. You are my hope of glory, the hope of glory in this career that you have given me for your name sake. And your perfect love casts out all my fears. I believe that, help me remember thatn and receive your perfect, complete, wholesome love so that I would not fear. So that I would stand steadfast and look to the mountains even in my valley and see your help. My help comes from you Lord, the maker of heaven and earth. The maker of the laws of this world. The most righteouts Judge, you God, and the most holy perfect advocate, Jesus.

I don't know what I want, what is best, what I should look for, where to apply. I really don't know much. There are so many voices, so many things out there. I feel a little lost sometimes. But right now as I write, I make the decision to trust you. To remember that you set a path before me, that you are lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path. That you will direct me in the way I should go, that you will close doors and open doors that no man can shut. That you will crown me with glory. Amen. My heart trusts in you and I am helped. I love you Jesus. Please flood me with your peace, and lead me Lord. Lead me for I am the flock of your pasture. I am sheep, but I am your little sheep.